Yes, this blog is turning into a place for me to complain about my pathetic lovelife. I’m deeply sorry for that, but not sorry enough to stop. The thing is, my dear Watson, it’s not that I want a boyfriend or a relationship because everyone else has one. I want someone because I have been alone for far too long. I deserve love, don’t I?
Yes, I kill people. But you know what? I have to and I didn’t decide to become a vampire. Unlike some annoying, winey vegetarians, I don’t view myself as a monster. I view myself as what I am, a vampire, and eating humans is what vampires do. Sorry that I prefer to be a cliche.
So you know what I almost did today? Before I came to my senses? I almost went out and found a human, a damn human, to become my life partner. I’m sorry, but there is no way in hell that I am pulling an Edward. Besides the fact that falling in love with a human is completely deranged, it is against our laws. You aren’t supposed to tell humans about vampires, ever, under any curcumstances. Just because you turn them into a vampire afterwards doesn’t make it right. And besides that, Edward didn’t even plan to turn Bella into a vampire when he told her EVERYTHING about us. That kind of pissed me off, but whatever.
On a completely different note, I’m really happy about my current family standing. Everyone is happy for once and so what if I’m not lucky enough to experience that. I just met Felix’s girlfriend, soon I will be partaking in Ren and Santiago’s wedding and best off all, Jane hasn’t been running around torturing everyone! Uhm, not that she did before, or anything….
I don’t have much else to say, actually I have nothing else to say, but I don’t want to stop writing. Mainly because I have nothing else to do. Twitter is slow going, so that’s a bust. Isn’t being in the Volturi guard supposedly action packed and amazing? It is, don’t get me wrong, but these days I just can’t seem to keep busy. I have to occupy my time for the rest of eternity, I was bound to hit a slow spot.
Also, I think I should add that I don’t hate the Cullens. Those two years were a bit irritating, but I think that all in all, the Volturis and the Cullens are on good terms. I was just venting in that one paragraph. I also don’t usually cuss, that’s Fe’s area, but sometimes that just illustrates the point better.
